It's not all positive and happy

In the last week 3 people who apparently follow my blog have told me that I make it sound easy and fun. They also told me I’m an inspiration and how cool it is what I’m doing but the thing that stuck with me is that I make it sound easy and fun. And I’m not saying that it isn’t fun, it partly is, but it definitely is not easy. I started this blog with the intend to share the whole journey and that means the positive and the negative stuff. But reading through my post I realize that most of them take a very positive approach and those that do mention the not so pretty stuff often do so in a kind of sarcastic/not totally serious kind of way. So no wonder that someone tells me that I make it sounds easy.

This is nothing new. I often tend to show people the positive and happy stuff and keep the negative stuff to myself. I’ve always done this and I don’t think it’s necessarily a bad thing. But this blog is supposed to reflect the whole story. So I decided that it is time for an entry about the not so pretty stuff.

OK, so let’s start with something easy - the time commitment. I’m training about an hour per day 4 days during the week and on Sundays. That alone is already a significant time commitment. And then on Saturdays I have to do my long runs and at this stage in the training plan that means at least 2 hours running. That makes for about 7-8 hours per week.

Related to that is the energy level issue. These days I do my training and I go to work and when I get home at night I’m often so tired that I could go to sleep right away. They say when you lose weight you energy levels go up and that might be true, but I guess when you spend 7-8 hour working out every week there is not much left of that extra energy at the end of the day. On Wednesday morning I got up and got ready for my run and then I started to feel really dizzy and sick. That was actually quite scary – I guess that was my body telling me that I should slow down a little. So I skipped my run that day and on Thursday I felt much better again. But still, definitely not something I want to experience again.

Another LITERALY not so pretty aspect of this are my feet (and I apologize, this is going to be a bit disgusting). I have tones of blisters and sore areas on my feet. I have no idea how I’m suppose to wear any jandals this summer.

And, believe it or not, there is a downside to losing weight too. And if you are trying to lose weight yourself (and btw, wanting to lose 5kg is not ‘losing weight’ it’s pissing of all those people that really have to lose weight.), so if you are trying to lose serious amounts of weight, you might want to stop reading here otherwise you will probably end up hating me a little. OK, so the problem with losing weight is that nothing fits anymore. Almost all of my clothes are too big, but I don’t want to spend too much money on new ones because I still need to lose some more weight so it would kind of be a waste of money. As much as I love getting skinnier, sometimes getting dressed in the morning is more challenging than it ever was before. And because of the combination of weight loss through healthy eating and weight loss through exercising my figure is changing so quickly sometimes. The pants I’m wearing today were a bit tight until about 2-3 weeks ago. This morning I looked in the mirror and realize they are getting too lose and don’t really fit all that well anymore. And I know I shouldn’t be complaining about this but it’s negative day so I’m just dumping all that stuff that annoys me. And this totally does. I mean, I obviously have to wear something and my job requires proper business clothes and those are expensive. And as a women you are expected to wear something different every day. This is another thing that annoys me. The guys at our office have maybe 2 or 3 suits/suit pants and then a couple of shirts and that’s it. As a woman you are expected to have a number of different outfits, at least one for every work day. If you lose a dressing size per month that is very expensive. So I’m trying to get along with the clothes I have and keep telling myself that once I have reach my goal weight I will get lots of new, great fitting clothes. I just have to get there first.

OK, that should be enough negativity for now. I promise the next entry will be in the usually happy, positive and slightly sarcastic tone again.
Until then, keep the motivating and encouraging messages coming I think I will need them ;-)